Hi Laurie, as far as goals are concerned, W is coming home later, has little input on my projects except to imply that I was doing stuff wrong, and it seems like I may be served with papers very soon. IOW, no progress. As far as intimacy, she told me that if i didn't want to sleep in the spare room, I didn't have to, so I moved boack, and managed to touch her side hip or whatever every night, but was shrugged off several times. I used to know my W better than anyone else, now there is a list of people that she choses to confide in, rather than me. My friend (W of OM) called to say that she talked to my W on the phone. She asked my W a series of tough questions, (ie, are you sleeping together? How would you characterize your R? etc) The most interesting part of all of this was that my W called her H her best friend! UGH! OMG I screwed up!
I have been reading an NY divorce book. I feel a little schizo reading 5 LL & a divorce book, as Albert Einstein said, "You cannot simultaneously prevent and prepare for war." I know how much I hurt W by being LDH, and I want her to be happy. I want to slow down her exit so that I can understand how she can be so sure we are DONE. She DID confirm that she would attend the MC session, a good sign that she has something to say...Time will tell what that is...
