Hey Cally and GEL-- We've talked about going on a date. I've mentioned it...and it didn't get shot down. (WARNING: Excuse central ahead!) We've just been very busy with kid activities and the possibility of moving. But, it seems the tornado that picked us up six weeks ago has finally set us down somewhere. So, I'm going to really focus DBing again and in building her confidence in me.
Guys, I'll admit it. I'm scared. I'm scared that I've totally blown it to smithereens without a hope of recovery. I'm afraid that anything and everything I do is SO wrong. I'm frustrated b/c I see where I'm beginning to make progress on me but she is completely unmoved by it. I don't want a D--because I know THIS is the woman God sent me as my wife. I don't want my children to endure a life of separate parents and families. I'm afraid of being alone because I know that I will never be able to love/trust anyone again. Who will care for me when I'm sick? My children--that's not fair. Who will throw my 40th birthday party?
I'm sorry...like I said earlier, I'm emotional today. D@mn I'm SUCH a girl!!! It's just that I'm disappointed in myself, my W and our R. It doesn't have to be like this.
Have a good day and a GREAT weekend. I'm hoping for some sun here in Texas! K
