I am finally learning the truth, but not from my H

[trustinginHim]

After much thought, tears, prayer, research, consideration, etc., I have decided to stay in my marriage with a recovering sex addict, for better or for worse. I have accepted and admit that I am a recovering codependent of a sex addict and need just as much help/therapy, if not more at times, than my H with his sexual addiction. I guess my point is that my time on the DB board is coming to an end.

Did I bust my divorce? Yes, in a roundabout way I suppose. And (pardon) what a long, strange trip it has been!!

I have located some fine resources on the internet and other materials to help me on my continued healing journey and have started what seems to be a mountain of reading and learning and coping. I am feeling pretty darn good again.

My H continues on his own path of healing and recovery. He has enlisted several men from church to help him with his accountability. He reads his Bible every evening and prays unceasingly. He and I are starting to spend more time in prayer together. His spirituality and reliance on the Lord is growing and I can see it, which reassures me mightily. And he finally conceded that he needs to make a point of working on intimacy with me, scheduled or not. It is all part of OUR recovery from this.

The Lord has showered my H and I with many blessings and I can only pray that it has been due to our growing faith and obedience to Him because we most certainly are not worthy. My focus now is to keep my eyes on Him and REMAIN obedient. It is the least that I can do.

My MIL made it through her surgery last week with flying colors! She was also able to keep her ENTIRE liver. She merely lost her bile duct and gall bladder. Her lymph nodes and other organs had pathology that showed clear margins so the cancer as far as we can tell has not spread. I am still looking forward to caring for her when she is discharged from the hospital soon.

I have a busy summer ahead of me, no, make that a busy life. I thank all of you who have posted to me in the year and a half that I have been here. I did not post much on other threads and I apologize for that, but was an avid lurker. I wish all of you that read this much success and many blessings in all your endeavors.

LG--thinking FINALLY that she is no longer lost