Hi LG, just visiting and looking up a few old friends. Wow, your story sure has had its turns and bumps. I don't know, really no one knows, and in some way, that's why it sucks so much. You know you can drive yourself crazy wondering all this stuff; contemplating the "what ifs?" Do your best to let go of all that and live life as best as possible right now. You never really know how many more days there are. I know I am sounding a little (maybe a lot) simplistic and philosophical, but when it is all said and done, you may have just plain wasted too much time in the worry mode.
Although our situations were/are vastly different, I can tell you that I, too, could not believe my H had changed so completely - so quickly (remember, he had sex in his truck with DS too, he also would lie about what he had "given up"), he gave me complete access to everything also after all was said and done, yet, like you, I continued to wonder if he had just found a new route. All I can say is that slowly it all went away as no more hiding and cheating were revealed.
The alcohol thing is also a concern for me, it is the one behavior that has lingered, although lessened greatly. As you remember, my h is a cardiac patient, so the large amounts he drinks at one time on occasion are of concern to me. Again, I can only give a friendly suggestion for his health and must let it go or I will drive myself crazy. I truly believe that what WE are supposed to learn from this are the lessons of ourselves, not of them. Take care, love and peace. WW
