I will not pretend that this is easy or pretend that I am not hurting still. I really want to believe that my H is FINALLY changing his ways, but he allowed me to believe that for the past year and did not change one iota of his behaviors. The ONLY things that are different this time are 1) his proclaimed belief in Christ as his Savior and 2) I now fully know what he has done regarding his infidelity. Will this be the turning point for my H?? I can't answer that yet, but I am trying to be patient. I don't want to walk away from my marriage, but I have yet to make any definitive decisions. It could still go either way for me.
I was dismayed to watch the Oprah show last week and see a topic such as sexual "swinging" discussed. Granted, the swingers interviewed were consenting married couples, supposedly. My husband and his women would present themselves as a married couple when they "swung". So, the fact that these people claimed to be married didn't hold much water for me.
What floored me, though, was when the "married" couple admitted they went to church. Is that to be believed? And are they true believers themselves? If they are, they don't appear to follow biblical doctrine very closely, if at all! Will my H continue to believe in Christ, yet "swing" in his free time? My H has a heavy travel schedule due to his job and promoting his book that is about to be released next month. All his other women know about his book, thus they will be able to see him at book signings. I am invited to go with him at times and other times I am asked not to, or simply never invited. What should I continue to make of that?
Well, you are correct, molliew, it will take time, and I guess I have lots of it. It WILL be hard to trust again. Very hard. I hope the good Lord will grace me with the ability to do so and grace my husband with the desire to love and cherish me and finally be faithful to me in our marriage. Only time will tell...
Wishing peace to everyone this weekend, LG
A blessed and happy marriage is a union of two forgivers and Him, because...a cord of three strands is not quickly broken. Ecclesiastes 4:12.
