It has been an interesting few weeks. My H is doing everything he can to convince me he is truly a believer in Christ now, but as can be expected, I am having real trouble with the trust issues. I have just given it over to the Lord to deal with. I have decided to be patient and see where this all leads. I am in no hurry and I like that pace. I am keeping my expectations nil. Healing from being emotionally destroyed twice in a period of 18 months is a bit on the tough side, but very doable with the healing power of the Lord.

I am trying to develop more of a life for myself. I am not interested in working yet because it really is not necessary for me to and I am enjoying my freedom to explore my options and do volunteer things.

I am a volunteer teacher in an afterschool Bible class for 5th and 6th graders that meets once a week and I enjoy that tremendously. I spend Tuesday mornings in fellowship and Bible study with women from my church every week. I have continued to clean out unnecessary excess material things from my house and life and donate it all to charity, heading toward my goal of a simple life. The weather is getting more consistently spring-like and I look forward to planting a garden with vegetables and flowers soon and tending it through the growing season. I like being able to have the flexibility to spend a weekend at a horse show with a girlfriend that I have met on this website. (Hi SC!! See ya this afternoon!! ) As time goes on, I expect I will get involved in many more activities.

Yesterday, BMOW and I met at a coffee shop and we spent a very pleasant two hours together in forgiveness and talking, making amends. It helped me tremendously in my healing process and I really believe it helped her too. I thought it a very appropriate thing for us to do with Easter being this weekend. We didn't plan it that way, it just happened--we both had a spur of the moment free morning. She is busily working to dissolve the internet business she and my H started so that she can get on with her life with no more ties to him. She told me that when all is said and done with the business, if there are any monies left over she wants to donate the funds to my church's building fund for our new sanctuary. I thought that was very considerate of her. We will see if she follows through. Remember--no expectations.

It has been hard for me to learn that my H continued to repeatedly cheat on me throughout our reconciliation, but hopefully he has the help he needs now to overcome his problems.

I shall wish everyone a Happy Good Friday and Happy Easter and ask you to remember the reason for the season--God is good, always and forever!

Blessings,
LG

A blessed and happy marriage is a union of two forgivers and Him, because...a cord of three strands is not quickly broken. Ecclesiastes 4:12.