I am finally learning the truth, but not from my H

[trustinginHim]

I have to say that I really appreciate all the posts in support of my H. It surprises me a bit, but perhaps it is the Lord using you to speak to me.

I have discovered current evidence, so H's deviant behavior is not limited to the past. It has been ongoing as we have worked on reconciliation the past year. Among other things, he has maintained open communication as recently in the past two weeks with some of his other women. The only thing that truly appears to be in the past is his relationship with BMOW.

My H left work in the middle of Thursday morning and came home to me torn and sobbing. I had never seen behavior like this from him. He asked me if we could talk and I agreed. He proceeded to tell me that he felt he had heard from God, that God had spoken to him that morning. Then he told me what happened.

While at work that morning, he logged into one of the secret email accounts he had told me recently he used as a spam trap, but instead actually contained current correspondence with other women that would incriminate him. He said he then prayed and proceeded to delete all the current evidence, plus some very hurtful emails he had written about me from the past that he felt I shouldn't ever read. He then logged out of the account and went about his work. A little later in the morning, he said he was prompted by a feeling to log back into the account, so he did. He says that when he logged back in, ALL THE FILES he had deleted that would incriminate him to current activity had been restored, but the hurtful emails about me were nowhere to be found as expected. He freaked, logged out of the account, turned the machine off and came home, fully believing that it was an act of God that had restored those incriminating files, but let the hurtful ones about me remain deleted.

He then told me that he was now a believer. That he felt he had experienced the miracle he had been waiting for, to prove to himself there was a God.

Now, to many of you, most especially the nonbelievers out there, this may sound rather hokey, or could possibly be explained away by a computer glitch. Doesn't matter to me--my H believes what happened was an act of God and I believe that he believes that. That is all that matters at this point.

My H and I have had some very extensive talks in the past few days. For the first time, I feel I am getting the truth from him. He is hungrily reading the Word, praying and confessing his sins to me. He says the Lord has spoken to him many times during his prayers in the past days. My H is definitely a changed man. I pray that he can continue in this vein. I don't think I could keep him from church tomorrow. He is even talking about what kind of ministry he can develop to save other addicts. I told him he was putting the cart before the horse there!

So. I now have a newborn Christian for a husband. He and I pray and read the Word together. We now can have a covenant marriage. God is good.

We meet with our counselor next week. Also, my H has arranged a family meeting next week at our home during spring break so that he can confess his sins to them and repent. He says God has asked him to do this, he says it's time and he is ready. His youngest brother will be the first to arrive tomorrow. The rest will trickle in during the week.

H and I have a long road ahead of us, but we are now a cord of three; H, the Lord and me.

Blessings,
LG

BTW--I never looked on his laptop computer. I took a risk that certain files were on it and called his bluff.