I am finally learning the truth, but not from my H

[trustinginHim]

what do you want to do, and how do you plan to go about it?

I really have made no decisions just yet. I am torn between giving H yet another chance or just walking away from it all and starting over. I will speak to my counselor and my church leaders, then make a decision.

My problem is I don't know if I will ever be able to trust my H again about ANYTHING he says or does. And on top of that, I don't know if I can ever be intimate with him again, if it comes to that. This man has degraded and abused me just as much as he has all the women involved in his sexcapades.

I keep thinking about H's claims to BMOW of molestation at 14 years of age. How could it be tied into his degradation of all women? So far the only answer the Lord has provided me is that my H must be angry. And it is a deep, sick, horrible, lingering anger at that 16 year old girl that is driving him to do the things he does to and with women.

And this is IF the molestation really affected him the way he claims it did. All I know for certain is that he needs the Lord and tons of therapy. And he'll only get therapy if he will agree to it. All these "ifs".

How many more times must I be degraded by his actions and lied to before my H is healed, IF he agrees to therapy and constant monitoring of his behavior?

May I ask your medical opinion of all this, Ellie? Anyone else is welcome to chime in here too with any opinion.