Nope, I didn't call her. The ball is definitely in her court and she knows it. On Father's Day in church, our pastor asked all the father's to stand and honored us. The rest of the congregation rose and applauded. My XW purposefully turned with a smile and made eye contact with me...I know it purposeful because I was about 15 pews back and to her left. I don't think I want her back any more. She has gone out of her way to rude to my 13 year old at church since I wrote her the letter in early May...she did this in front of another adult and did it in response to him walking up and giving her a hug. She is either extremely wacked out, immature, or has become so entrenched in her denial and wish to put our 5 1/2 R behind her that she would be mean to someone who is being kind to her...not anyone I want much to do with any more. She definitely needs help, but refuses to do anything about it. Thus, I am left with nothing. If God wants us together again, He will let me know and she will make some effort.
I appreciate your prodding, but as I recount our difficulties, they are immense. She recognized a lot of them after she left, said all but one were fixable (just how if she would not cooperate in the first place I don't know) except her issue with her adamant stance of being the only one who had anything to say about her children and she was not going to even do anything about that. It is over...I give up. I have to totally detach and emotionally let go of her...maybe she will come back, but I don't see a single sign of that ever happening. For one thing, she needs a long time to mature. I am not going to string myself along while she does that, IF she even tries to.
