Wes, I understand exactly what you are saying. To tell you the truth, I am scared of her...scared of getting a direct rejection from her. Probably I am scared of reality. I will work my way up to it I guess when I decide that feeling that particular pain of rejection is worth the release and moving on with my life. What I don't understand is why she won't even bother to write me to tell to go to hell. I told her in the letter I sent about a month ago that if she ever changed her mind about working on our R, I wanted to hear from her. The ball is sort of in her court. No reply to that letter, but she sure cashed the check! I think she might just still be a little bit angry. Her way of dealing with tough things is denial...don't think about it, it will all go away in good time. Of course, that is really a bunch of poppycock and partially why our M went down the tubes.
