<John drags himself upright after the major smacking to the cheek by Martha>
Thank you my dear. I do need to work more at GAL. I know a couple things I can do as well as some work things I really need to put a ball of fire under.
As for the arm-chair QBing of xw's psychological status...hard to do because I want to understand her. Of course, she is not giving any answers, and I have no indication whatsoever she even wants to be friends any more. I have lost my best friend. I would like to at least know why...what caused it? Can I know at least so I don't repeat the same mistakes again if there is a next time? Okay, my PMA is better, but this still sucks.
Martha, thanks for the flogging as I needed it and deserved it. You are absolutely right about over-focussing on HER. Heck, she even told me twice (has to be true then, right?) that it was HER ISSUES! What do I need? Koshka's 2X4 from God? I guess I really am an idiot a lot of the time...especially when it comes to relationships. Oh, and by the way, numerous retrospective analyses of my DB activities showed that nothing worked...not that was even an irrefutable baby step. That kind tells how it is doesn't it?
