Hi Slowly...
No, the only help i am getting is going to gym, playing my piano and breathing a lot..!!.. Some years ago i took zoloft, but right now i am trying to control by myself.. i know it is mentruation the mostly cause of the severe depressive days... right now that perior passed, i feel so much better.. so, maybe i need some help for Pre menstrual syntoms, do you know somenthing that can help me?.
Ok... Good news but at the same time trying not to hesitate too much about this.... After all my claims, my speeches, my sincere words about my feelings to my h, incluiding yesterday whie we were eating... at night (yesterday) i decided to do an strategy i share with a friend... an strategy i decide after thinking in my h sexual no desire at all... My friend point out this problem in a different way that makes me see the issue in another perspective... she said: Hey... relax... I think he is so nervous about not working well bc all his turmoil... no man died bc no R at all for 4 months... you dont have to think this is bc he is taking R with someone else... mosty bc you are saying me he use to be early at home and is always with you and kids... so... You are sexual perfect... you feel sexually great... he is the one who has the problem and this pressure him more"... So, i said her... "Ok, so... i will play with that... i will torture him a little... i will make a 180 right now... instead of folowwing his acctitude about no erotism or sensuality at all, i will do it... i will not initiate, but i will seduce in an ocult way to see what happen".... So... yesterday i put the excuse about Hot weather, and put off my tshirt of the pijama, so natural, so nicely... viewing besides him TV... standing and going to coucine, ordening the laundry at bed... and guess what...?!!!!... in 20 minutes he look for me... and was AMAZING...!! So, this is the first intimate aproximation between us since january...!!... I think this is a big big good step...
Remembr he said his C and him had decided not to look for that moments just fot not creating hopes or worng expectations...!!..
Lets see what happens... i am trying to follow the same actitude... my life, my gym, my sensuality... and this time i will not express him too much affection, too much hesitation... little by little... i think he just need to do a great work... he must effort to conquer me again... he must think in what he is not doing and i am wishing... By the same time i am thinking in the same... his desires and wishes, as always i had done...
Stay around
Andrea