For both, so thanks for your words and support... yes, think alo my husband is deeply depresed or at least living a big big crisis in his life... reminds my h use to be, the greates part of his life, 38 years or more, as a big big fat man and now he feels so hansome atractive, he discover his XXXXX!!!...
Today had happened many strange things..
First, not as strange as the second, i was on internet and catch a big big friend of my h on messanger.. so, i decide to write him... "hey, can you do me a favor?!!... hey, he answered, just tell me what i can do for you... I know you appreciate me and my kids... also i know you are so close of my H... i ask you please to help him a lot whle he tries to find his happiness, mostly recomending him always touching ground and using his brain...!!.. I had never talked to you abut us before, so excuse i take this freedom of talking and thanks for listening...
So, he answered " i know what you are talking about and i had been helping XXX from some months... this is anther crisis of your h, as the other ones he had suffered... i feel him this time more concious and focus to do things write... he needs a lot of love of his familly and you to take well of this...
So, i answered... "i had givn him support and i had implant all the patience in the world... but he wants to separate... and i cant make any decission by him... and please, this conversation reserve it for both, you and me... i only wish he really can find that happiness outside home and all the hurt he will cause to the kids or me at least have a good reason... i love you, and thanks again..
He answred "I love you too".
So, his friends also identify his crisis...!!... thats great, i am not mad... i am not inventing the whole thing..

Lets pass to the second strange or unexpecteed moment... bc passport tramits, me and my h needs to go, together, to renovate it... So, i look for him at his clinic... We began going on the road, he was asking me the documents we need. and i said "Please, get only 2 fotocopies of my I.D". Why you made more?... bc your secretary asked me for ones... but right now she wont need it, so i will maintain them at home...!!... So, he began saying...
-I dont know... i am so confused... this morning i called XXX to rent his apartment (the ame friend who rent him last separation)... so, i have where to move... but i am feeling so sad... yesterday night was awfull... i am not sure if separation is the best... you said i will stole you money... i want my familly... i want to feel good with you... you force me... you push me... i want more time... i know i am in crisis, i am not the same man... you are not perfect... M is not good bc both... i feel boring with my M...!!... and the same as always...


- I said him i didnt mention the separation word and that was him who do this... that i began saying, when he asked what we will do, that i want my marriage, that i want my familly... i have all morning crying bc the children, bc the end of a beautifull project... you cant said i was the one who said i want a separation or a D... you said it... i have 4 months in a row hearing you say i am obese, ugly, unatractive, and also with that i calmly didnt made any decission... i am mad... yes... but mad with life bc all this things life push me to experience... Why us?!!... yes, i had desperate, i maybe forced you or pressure you, but bc the fear, i am so scare this will end in a year, in a month, in the same, D... bc your therapist as you said me affirm why if all M can separate in a peace way, we cant made it...!!... bc your therapist is Pro D... bc you hadnt improve nothing with that, and it is like you have a title in your face with the word D...!... i cant change your T... i cant talk to him... that was your election, but i can see what he thinks and how he is helping you...!!...

So, in resume, this were some of the words we interchange... after doing tramits, i left him at clinic and he said... by, we will be talking...

He had callled 2 minutes ago saying hello so nice, asking about anabella, my baby girl and if i had bought the pool she wants... i said yes, that she was down at park... he said, ok, i will go after phisiotherapist... Ok.. (he has a hut in his leg bc running)...
Stay around, PLEEEEEAAASSEEEE...
Andrea