Yesterday afternoon i passed by mom´s home bc she asked me just to talk about a business project she has...!.. Being there, where i can feel so loved, care and secure, i decide to talk sincerly with mom and my bigger sister... I told them about H again confution, that he say he doesnt feels happy, that he doesnt knows what he wants, that he is asisting therapy with a psiquiatric, and that he is trying to makes me feel so ugly and fatty, even i am not...!!... That i will not make any decission, that i want him to be the one who take decission... that we continue going our with friends, all so strange, as nothing is happening between us for them but when we get home, he is there i am here, he is nos happy and deffinetely is not making me happy either...!! My sister first reaction was: You know... Send him to hell...!!... My mother first reaction was: think a lot, dont precipitate, and be patient... i think maybe there is a woman around... but dont ever think to find it bc it will not resolve or change anything. I feel better now with my familly, always great support for me, knowing what i am living right now...! My sister advice me next time h ask me to get out with other couples, just to say, so calm and nice "hey... go alone and enjoy it... it is not makes sense being together if you dont feel happy with me, you know...?... i will do anything, but enjoy... go out with your friends...!! In case he react mad bc my comment or say something like "What hell are we going to do, so??!... i will answer... i dont know, you are the one who knows... you are the one who doesnt feel happy with me any more...!!... I will think in that advice... my h is that kind of man who cares a lot about appearence... so... it seems i am helping him to sustain limboland... to sustain his double play... to maintain his double wishes... the perfect familly Vs the handsome boy dreaming with a pasional new love... Stay around... Andrea
PD: By the way, he is acting as always... not close but not hurting... always saying hello or giving me a "brother" kiss to say good by at morning... no hug, no closer, no afection at all at mornings... He got home so early yesterday, earlier than me, he is working... and not being mad when i ask for money... always giving me plenty of it withput claiming...!!.. Thats are positive steps but also can be a nice way to mantain me calm and maintaining his fantasy of the perfect familly evn he is not in love or he thinks is not!!
