Dear Bridget... how nice to know about you again... i read your post on hopefulness and you feel so happy and secure about yourself... you are an inspiration for me.... About your comments...
Quote: "Act as if" this will pass. "Act as if" it's his problem. "Act as if" he will find his way out of the tunnel. "Act as if" you have all the time in the world
The last one is the most difficult... i dont have all time of the world and i feel time is passing and i am not feeing loved and dappy... i think he´s feeling the same...
Quote: I think your H could use a dose of "what would happen if Andrea disappeared" so I invite you on a California spa trip. Come visit and we'll go to the wine country, honey. Pack a lot of sexy little nothings and say nothing about who you're going with...
What a briliant and spectacular idea, maybe, when my prjects get flow i will have money for that and many dreams, travel dreams i have for my own...
Yesterday we had another R talk, and he repeat the same... "i am not feeling happy"... so, i asked him... ¿What you will do about that, bc it has no sense just continuining getting out with couples, with friends, as evrything is OK and the real is that you are not, and by consecuence i am not fine...!... so he answered "yes, it has no sense at all... we need to separate but i dont know how"... what do you mean you dont know how?!!... "Well, making it right...!... a separation is a separation, a divorce is a divorce... and kids wil be fine, me too, continuining a life... you are the one confuse... you are the one who doesnt wants this marriage... you are the one who has to take decissions...!!... i said... When we get home i couldnt sleep besides him, knowing he doesnt love me... knwing he doesnt wants me... so i again, slept at the living room and wake up before kids do it so they wont find me sleeping there He waked up early, just to do exercise (is the only thing he feels happy doing... and he diesnt return yet... I asked him on conversation if he had found the one who excite him and makes him feel happy... he said "no, but i want to find it"...!!... i again, said i can beleive there is no one else, bc he has 4 months in a row without any sexual or intimate relation with me... at least this is nt possible in a normal person, is possibe is a depressive man...!!... he didnt say anything... I am thinking a lot about this... what if he has OW...?... when he saw her...?... bc he use to be with us all time...!!... Also i cant understand, and i told him, his changing acttitude... last weekend he was more affective, also one morning he hug me in a more erotic way... and now, again, he is so distant, icy...!!... it is like when he returns to his cotidianity, normal days of week, he inmerse again in his other world, the world where andrea doesnt fit or he doesnt want me to be with him...! On thursday i know he went out with a friend who separate 6 months ago and is tramiting his divorce, and now is in love with other girl... that kind of companion arent good, uh?...! Well, thats all till now... please, i need a lot of support... stay around Andrea
