what I feel is that you must make things different... seems excelent for me that you are analyzing yourself... for you and for me... because definitively with your confusion we did not arrive at no side... but I want request that you take into account this woman who you have in front... that loves you so much and has demonstrated it, and does not deserve more damage, wounds, bad treatments... sometimes is like you hate me... I recognize that you make an effort trying to be considered, kind... but in infinity of occasions it leaves to shine that wounded, rabid glance, that wounded and hurtind comments... What I have done to you...?? I have made you damage....?...
Pause... I went to the bath, I returned
What i think it is that to the end always we are going to divorce... that there are unsalvable things...
or that you do not wish to save. then why to follow the picture if you have the conclusion...
hey... it is you who is saying that... I said that I do not know what is going to happen...
but you have between eyebrow and eyebrow the word: Divorce....!!
For anybody will be surprise that we get divorce... we do not have well been... people knows that ...
what is what you are doing... preparing the land...?... because I hate that play already... if you wanted to divorce, be brave to make your suitcases and to make the decision... I had said that i wanted to try it, both, that is, I I want to save it, but you not...
I did not say that, i wish we could followed together, but I do not know what will happen, how wll this end... you are very impulsive, you want the answers already... I am hardly beginning a process... a process to see me my self, my relation with my children, you... understand why I feel like i feel... the C is so good and i feel he is helping me
You know something...? That i finishes deciding that now is called on me to be selfish... that I am going away to make an effort, but to prepare without any hope... to feel myself safer and secure... and more and more happy with myself... in order to end a dream or proyect of life that I cannot have....
You see, watches as you put yourself... I do not know if it is good for us speaking these things... is perhaps precipitated.
it seem excellent to have spoken to me... I believe that there will be more to speak.... to be clear both of towards where we go....!!.... if definitively you think that I am the cause of your torments... that your consultation is bad because of me, that you feel rabid by fault mine, that you cant be with a young gir bc of me, that you cannot have the small plane bc of me.., is worth, takes the decision, comunicate it and point.... I repeat to you, I have fought and work for another solution, but this is not a single effort or R... so now I will take care more of my self....
That was the conversation.... we got home, get slept... and this morning he called me just to help him going to his doctors office bc his secretary had fallen... so, i said yes, but then he again ring me to say thanks but that the lady will stay seated and attend the phone... that is the first tim my h ask me to help him at work or feel confortable with me being at his office...
I will wait for your comments... right now i am just analizyng my own thoughts Andrea
... 
