Just trying to mantain my journal, even i am a little tired about all this situation... questioning DB again?!!... questioning if i really can made alone my M works...!! The weekend was ok in general... we went to a wedding on saturday and i really enjoy it although hw wasnt too much affective or caring about me..!. On sunday we went all the familly to an event in our kids school, and th situation was almost the same... he trys to be normal, attent, but sometimes it is like he hates me... No closer or intimate at all.. no touch or affection at all... I am getting desperate... and so needy to have a talk but i know we need to have a conversation in a calm way, without pressure, without hurtng and i dont know if thats possible... I wan to ask him... Why i feel like he hate me sometimes?... Whats is he needing from me and why he isant satisfied with R?... What is he thinking right now about R?... How is hefeeing with his C session? If he feel better or worst...?... What can i do to makes him feel better and to feel myself better?... But also i need those answers i am so afraid about what will be his answers, and how the conversation will be.... So, i need some advices... please, help me a little to control myself or to make the right move Andrea
