I had the boys all weekend. We went camping with some relatives. They played with their cousins, went swimming and generally had a good time. Yesterday we went to my grandfathers house for a visit.
Dropped them off this morning. I was in a hurry and didnt say anything to her. Next dropoff I need to at least say hi. I'm really trying to detach, but at times I go overboard, it bugs me when I dont at least say hi to her.
Your right about dropping the rope. At times I think, there is no way I could really handle a relationship with her after all the damage. Lately I try to think a little less about things. I gotta give myself a break, it is so unhealthy to focus all this energy on someone whom really does not care for me. Its especially draining when I have a 2 and 5 year old to keep up with. They deserve so much from me. Spending so much time fretting and worrying about her is shortchanging them. I've finally dropped the rope, and not sure if I'll ever pick it up again. All I know is I'm trying not to think about her so much.
I've been following your thread and just wanted to say hang in there, and stay on that high road.
