Update: Well, not much has changed. I still love her, she still doesnt love me. The bright side: she doesnt hate me We get along well the boys are doing good All in all I still have alot to be thankfull for. The other day I bought her a set of tools for around the house, nothing real big, $60. I saw it and knew she could use it. I havent bought her anything in awhile, so I thought it was a safe bet. She actually started to cry when I gave it to her. I really dont understand it. Does she cry because she really doesnt love me and feels sorry for me because I obviousely still love her? Just a guess on my part. Anyway I actually tried to down play the gift saying it really wasnt a big deal, she countered with "it is a big deal". I'm at the point now that I dont read anything into anything coming from her. It just seems so pointless. I still have the boys the majority of the time. We are making it pretty well, I mess up some, but try to learn from my mistakes. I'm actually thinking about joining an online dating site. I just need to get out, going out to the bar is OK but, not a place to meet someone. I'm not giving up on her, but I will not wait forever and she shows no signs of softening. Its been almost a year since the bomb. I think I'm ready? I know one thing, I miss having a female companion. Oh, something really special happened the other day. I bouth S5 some fireworks and gave them to him. As he sat in the truck and looked through the sack, I asked him if he thought they would do. He just looked up at me with the biggest smile ever, I'm talking ear to ear and said thanks dad. That moment will last a life time. I am so thankfull.
