Hello everyone, XW got back from Cabo. To make a long story short, her boyfriend went with her. I didnt ask for the information, she mentioned (it matter of fact). I think she wanted to tell me. No big suprise, but all the same it really hurts. I've been in a funk for a couple of months now. I guess its because I know that she has a signicant relationship with someone else, and I know she will probably never come back to me. Our boys keep me grounded. I thank God for them. If it weren't for them I dont know how I would get thru all this. I hate writing all this negative crap, but it helps a little to write it out. I am so sick of these up and down (mostly down) emotions. God, I guess I just want this thing to be over. I'm the only one holding on and I cant keep this up forever, its too tiring. I feel like she is using every weapon in her arsonal to get rid of me. How long can I sustain the hurt she is piling on me. How do you truely let go of someone you love so much??
