Fishing for some advice here... I'm dark she's dark, we each have our own lives these days. Its still very difficult for me to talk to her. Why is it so hard for me to talk to her? Last night she called from Cabo to talk to the boys. I knew it was her so I let 5S answer, after talking with both of them she asked to talk to me. Basically she just wanted me to know that her cell phone was working down there. She also asked me how the fishing was. Why am I put off every time she tries to make small talk? Is it because I resent what she did and know that its just small talk? I dont know but I want to get over this. After I talk with her, I walk around cursing her name (not around the boys). I need to stop this resentment. I think it would be better if she just didnt call. To be honest, I just hate what we have done, to us and our family. I just still cannot accept the fact that its too late. I have to keep moving on. I gotta get past this. On a lighter note, the boys and I are having a ball. We spend lots of time together. I am enjoying being a father now more than ever. XW is missing out on so much. Last night they were chasing each other around the couch in their underware after their bath. That moment made me feel so good, to see something so innocent, pure and full of joy. Hard to describe, hurts me to know she is missing those moments. I wonder if her new life is worth all she has left behind. As far as DBing goes, I cant really tell that going dark is helping. I dont really know of anything else to try. suggestions:
