Yep, Hope it just sounds like you just need some more time to heal your pain. Time truly does heal all wounds. God won't let you suffer for the rest of your life. He is trying to make you a stronger person through your suffering, and it will happen. Hang in there and take care of yourself as much as possible.
By the way, I want you to know that it nearly killed me when my husband dated. How did I deal with this situation? I wouldn't let myself think about it or dwell on it and I put my energy into making myself a better person. I also told myself that he will never find anyone better than me, and I believed it with all my heart.
I have another story for you. I have a family member whose wife left him. In my eyes, his wife is an evil human being who I don't think he should shed a tear over but who am I and there are always two sides to the story. These people are really messed up and as dysfunctional as you could ever get, however; this family member was the only one there for me through my divorce. He listened to a year of my whining and crying and constantly reassured me that the pain does end. He watched as I gained more strength and worked at DBing. He laughed at me but kind of paid attention to my efforts to save my marriage. He was very upset about his wife leaving him and never stopped wanting her back in his life. When he saw all the changes I was making to try and win back my husband, he would say, "I wish my ex-wife loved me enough to make those kind of changes for me." I tried to explain that he only has control over his own actions and changing his own behavior could make things between him and ex better. The fact was that he wanted to reap the rewards without any work and he was stuck on what she did to him and refused to see his own mistakes.
He and his wife would still hang out and because of this I unfortunately developed a relationship with the witch (can you tell that I don't like this person). I would listen to her side of the story to get insight into how my own husband might be thinking. It was obvious that if he made true and lasting changes that she still loved him enough to reconsider. Like him, she was also stuck on how he did this and that wrong, and she refused to make any changes. Watching them go back and forth, I truly believe that it only takes sincere and permanent changes from one person to change the dynamic of the relationship.
I hope you get inspiration from my recent posts and can see how my situation has changed because of changes I made within. None of the positives have come from trying to make H realize his mistakes. Take care. By the way, my computer still doesn't work.
