not a lot to report, but I thought I'd post a little just for my recall if nothing else.

I got an email from H this morning about 10, saying he hoped I was feeling better, that I had looked so tired this morning...I was surprised, because I've been tired since the time change and have had a headache all day, even early this morning. However, I didnt say a word to H about any of it, other than I may have commented that my tail was dragging. I thought it was sweet of him to notice, it's unusual for him to mention something he noticed about me.

Saw him for just a few minutes this evening before bringing S to class; he was talkative, wound up about work, I do feel like it is a good sign/baby step that he seems so eager to chat about his day anymore. I was nearly late getting S to class because we were "yakking"...I did at one point say "I'm going to have to go, but I think something really important is being overlooked here" and H came to me, said "yes", put his arms around me, and gave me a nice hug and kiss. Of course I told him "yep, that was it!". As we were getting ready to go out the door, H told S "I Love you, have a good class"....that struck me as a sign of perhaps reconnection, and also struck me that I don't hear H tell the poor kid that very often. I'm so glad he did.

S and I were talking this evening, about how things have changed over the last few years. S said "you're different"...I asked what he meant, and he said well, you are thinner some, and you sure are stronger" I wasnt following and asked how he thought I was stronger and he said "mentally"...I asked in what way, and he said "you just seem to get nearly as upset or upset as often as you used to". THAT meant a lot to me....I've worked really hard on learning to focus on the important stuff, do what works, "act as if" etc. If a 12-year old boy notices, hopefully his dad has to notice even more. Hmmmmm, maybe ow even notices. that would be ok, too.

in the ongoing battle of the parking spaces, I got here before her this morning and claimed "my" usual spot...so she parked 2 spots over again. Showing off that yellow teddy bear on the dash, I'm sure ...whatever. I'm the one who'll be sleeping in the same bed with him tonight, and frankly have been darn near every night for the last 27 years inspite of her best efforts. I'm just struck more and more by what an idiot she must be.

However, I still long for the day when I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that she is old history. Not sure how I'll know, but hopefully that day will come, and soon.

I have to get back on the wagon with diet and exercise, though, I've not been good at all since I was sick for a month, and I'm feeling "out of shape" (not that I'd gotten that well back into shape yet) and it's not a nice feeling.

I do still want to get a new bike. I wonder what H would do if I started riding it to work some? I would like to do some of that, last summer when I talked about it, he was fussing about it being dangerous....ah well, more of my GAL goals still to be accomplished.

been around awhile!