This is a late post for me! I thought I would check in before I exercise and do my evening stuff. I did miss hearing from you but like I said, I knew it was a good thing so I was really pleased!
I may not have mentioned this but I worked for a veterinary group for 14 years so I do know about the rabies test. I am so sorry that you had to go through that. I just recently had my cat put to sleep. She had just turned 20. Even though I knew it was the right thing to do, it was still difficult. She wasn't a cat you could bond with...very independent but still she was with me for half my life! It was much harder than I thought it would be. Hugs to your family!
The puppy is 73# and holding! She was "helping" me pull weeds this afternoon. SIGH I could have gotten more done with a child on my hip! But she's a good little girl. Amazingly she does seem "little" to me. My last dog was a german shepherd and she was very, huh, tall. Growing up we had two sheperds at different times. This pup is muscular and stocky. Definately a lap-full!
As for my h, sadly, I think he has gone back in the tunnel. He again acts selfishly (and stupidly..lol). This makes sense to me, as he did nothing to help himself out, like counseling. IMHO, he's hiding from the truth, whatever THAT is, and instead of trying to figure it out he likes to blame me (or anyone, anything else) for his troubles.
Soooo....I am getting on with things on my own. I rarely ask him for anything and never if it's something that I think I can do on my own. And I have stopped "doing" for him, no cooking, no laundry, nothing unless it is business related. This newest thing (about 3 weeks) is making him really angry but he won't say anything about it. Sometimes it's comical to watch him try NOT to say something. But Deb, I have tried just about everything else so I thought I would give this a shot. If nothing else, I am certainly happier not having to cook and clean-up after him.
I am looking for my own full-time job and figure that when that happens, I will push harder for the D. Sad.
On a positive note....I did get asked out by a twenty year old guy on Monday! Yeah for me! I, of course, politely said "no, but thank you" instead of "what, are you crazy, I am almost 41 years old!". I was surprised that I was able to maintain myself and not bust out laughing!
So that's a basic update on me: Pup, good. Me, good. Husband, an ASS.
Some thoughts...
Quote: because I still see all the fat I need/want to lose.
I am sorry that you feel this way. I wish that you didn't. I wish that I could talk you out of it, but I can not. Deb, you have to love yourself and give yourself a break. You have come a long way and life is NOT over. We are all works in progress but we have to enjoy each step we take along the way. If we don't, we will miss out on so much joy. Please do not keep waiting and waiting to love yourself until you...lose weight or your marriage is better or whatever...you might miss a lot. (I give myself this lecture about my marriage/myself EVERY damn day!)
Quote: hmmm, if ow only knew
She does. Isn't it great?
You take care Deb. Oh, and good luck with the golf lessons!
(I give myself this lecture about my marriage/myself EVERY damn day!)
