Hi Randy, thanks for stopping by, I appreciate your input. I know my H has been very confused, and it seems to me like for a very long time. I think part of what gets me worked up it that sometimes I hope that he has made up his mind, well thats not exactly it. what gets me worked up is that he tells me he has made up his mind....that is is over w/ow, that he is not leaving, that we are doing well and will be ok. I am afraid to let myself believe him is the gist of the problem. Then he gets upset and angry that I don't/can't believe him, and goes off the deep end that I will never be able to forgive him and get over it and he will have to hear about it for the rest of his life, and he can't live with that. Yet, he's not been able to do the things that I think would move me through the tough spot....so, I don't know, I just keep trying to hang on and hang in, but sometimes, especially when I'm kind of emotional, the hurt does come flooding back, and it's hard for me to shut is down, but at this point that is what I have to do to be able to get on with stuff.
I will try to get your thread checked out. I'm not very good at posting to others these days it seems. Kinda wrapped up in my own mess, I guess. I do think of you, and So MUCH appreciate your input.
