oh, ouch! all of a sudden I am panicky and afraid again. I had mentioned in an email that I have a head ache, and got this email from H:
Quote: Sorry to hear you aren't feeling well. Well, you can go home and nap for a while. I think I'll take a walk then we can watch some TV tonight, or who knows what?? Well, next case conference is up so got to go. Later
I don't know what to think. My fear and panic comes from the fact that this is Wednesday, the day I always to S to religious ed class, which ow's D is also in. I am always 1/2 fearful that they sneak off and get together while class is going on. I KNOW they used to meet in the parkin lot at church (I've seen emails) during the class back when H took S to class. Kids are on spring break, so there's no class. it seems weird that H would walk tonight, it's been raining and cold and damp here. However, his tread mill has been acting up.
HELP!!!!!!!!! anybody got any wise or semi-wise words or thoughts here?
Any thoughts about my idea for the chocolate kisses and see-thru shirt for this evening? too much? or give it a try and see what happens?????? I read a post, I think from chocolateyes, in the ssm forum, that some guys who are sensitive need to be pursued and to feel wanted.....
I've gotta get a grip. I'm afraid I may say or ask something about ow if I stay in this frame of mind. I've had lots of fearful feelings lately. It's pretty ugly to feel this way after having been more comfortable for a while.
I want to live with joy and peace and love, not in this state of anxious fear.
