STILL morphing 4

[sage]

So, I don't know, I'm just blithering here in my irritable state, whistling in the dark I guess, but does ANY of this sound like progress to anybody?

Well, I dunno Deb...let's see...I think it's all here in black and white!

I remember how he used to say he didnt believe I loved him, he was just a paycheck and piece of furniture (ow encouraged him to believe that, I know)...now, within the last 2 weeks or so, I slipped up and said "do you know I love you?" and put my arms around his shoulders...he looked me in the eye and said "yes"

...he does look me in the eye more, even looks S in the eye more, S has mentioned this.

H initiates sex, and hasnt been complaining for several months that it is "a chore";

This year, I gave him a card that has a little boy and girl on a swing, and it says "you're my most favorite thing.....ever" I told him I thought it was cute, and that the sentiment fit exactly. He agreed it was cute, and I saw him looking at the card again several days later.

Now we set at the dining room table and talk almost every evening. last night when he came home from work at 8:30, we talked until almost 10. We NEVER used to do that. I was trying to think when it started, and I cant remember, but I know that was one of my teeny tiny goals way back when. The kinda neat thing is, he pulled up a chair (I was sitting there doing my breathing treatment) and just started talking, before he went upstairs to change clothes or anything...

well, last night, and for about the last week, he was actually excited about work, about successes with some of his cases and about some of the young/new therapists coming to him for input/suggestions.

You talk more, he initiates sex, he's more excited about work, he looks you in the eye...need I go on?

Sage