Hi Pam, it is good to hear from you, I've thought of you often and wondered how you were doing. I"m sorry to hear things are not going in direction you would prefer. I had hoped that things were doing well for you. I have to say though that it sounds like they are going well in other areas besides your H.
I'm still here (obviously) some days I think doing great, other days I think I don't have a snowball's chance in hell and am just being a fool. For right now, I think I've pretty much dropped the rope w/H/ow....although it's hard, I've tried to shut that out of my mind and just get on with life. So I'm not 100% sure what's up with that. I THINK it's ratcheted down, but who knows. I work really hard to make no mention what so ever of it, and then plan to reassess my sitch in late June. So, I guess we shall see.
I do know ow is in trouble here at work, all on her own, and I can't help but worry that she has a large negative impact on H ( I know she does)...
Sometimes I think I see glimmers of hope that H is coming through his MLC, other times I'm overwhelmed with despair that it is futile and taking for ever and will never end. But, I'm still here.
Trying to think what to update you, I guess main thing that's happened is 2 days before xmas I found out H went with ow to (supposedly) take her D to meet XH, 8-hour road trip, and OF COURSE the poor incompetent boob cant function on her own, so H drives to work so I'll see his vehicle here, lies about being sick to the office, and then sneaks off to her place I guess. The s--t hit the fan when I found out, I started to pack, left the house for most of the night (just drove around) left for a day at a time several times over xmas break, upset S terribly, S told me his Dad bawled the whole night I was gone...a real night mare time. I emphasized that I don't intend to live with this forever, hope H got it through his head. don't know if he has, he's told me several times "it's over, you won" (some game, huh?) but I don't know how I'm supposed to believe that.
D is now married and lives out of state, don't know if you knew that. S misses her terribly, and so life goes on. I've been sick with flu-stuff for almost a month now, and am REALLY tired of it.
I'll be watching for your update. Hope your boys are doing well.
