Plenty, he has had cameras both ways, hes had physio. Hes had his testicals scanned, hes had bloods done, everything under and over the sun.....they have found nothing, and basically told him to get on with life.
His he having an affair?
I dont think so. But who knows for sure, I have asked him he says no.
Since our problems have begun I have put on around 50lbs. Yes I know it wont help but I was that big when the problems started so that wasnt a issue.
I know I am no oil painting, I am very realistic about what and who I am, and I know that I can no longer keep up with this kind of relationship. I have told him that I no longer believe in love, well if it did excist it surely shouldnt feel like this!! I have also said that I will no longer, ask, plead, beg, argue or even romance him into giving me any attention. I no longer want what he is unwilling or wants to give. I understand that a loving intimate relationship is not what all people want....if thats what you dont want or are unwilling to give thats fine but be straight with your partner. My friend at work goes on and on how she doesnt let her husband near her....but would be mortified if he had an affair...so its ok for her to deny him the love and attention he craves, but if he finds it else where she would be hurt and mortified.
For my partner the best thing I can do is leave the subject alone, its nots something he thinks about. For me its with me every day, the continued sadness and lonliness. You sit and watch telly and a love scene comes on, I have to get up and go to the kitchen and make a cup of tea....it just hurts too much.
So any ld's out there that want a loving relationship on there terms only....what about us when do our feelings, wants and needs get met. Are you then going to get angry if someone flirts with us and we flirt back because the attention is so nice and it makes us feel a little wanted and desired. You know I always thought a relationship was about give and take...in all departments. But it seems to me that if its the itamaite side then its tough. The LD person doesnt miss anything they dont want, but the hd person is left to know they are undesired wanted or needed. Dont get me wrong, me hd...no way, once a month would be wonderful, twice would be out of this world and that would be enough. Sorry for the rant but things have just gotton way on top of me and I am at breaking point.
