I had the same reaction. The grass is always greener on the other side, eh?
I think part of the reason I have this love/hate relationship with my 8ness is because the two people I love most and who have the most influence on me have had some negative reactions to it.
My mom is the quintessential 2. For the most part, she is a very high functioning 2. When my son was born, she came to help me and would actually spend nights bringing him to me just to breastfeed and keep him in between so I could get some sleep. She is an amazing woman, and has always tried to instill some of her 2ness into me, and of course it never took, lol! Still, somewhere deep down, I am a 2-wannabe.
And then there is my H, who is the quintessential 9. He is generally the serene type (except when he gets PA with me), and while he admires my drive and passion, he also wishes I would stop wanting 'more'.
Maybe the trick for all of us is to accept who we are and work on growing into a better version of ourselves, instead of trying to change into something we aren't. Boy, I'm all philosophical this am!
