Thanks for chiming in DrJL. Yeah, I feel like crap that I lied (sacrificed my integrity) in order to avoid confrontation with her. And, of course, I had totally set up the confrontation in the first place, although I'm not sure if it was intentional, or subconscious.
And yes, there is embarassment that my wife knows about this side of me and that she does not like it. Which causes me to wonder if I am trying to bring this issue (my fear of her reactions) to the fore, rather than sabotaging the progress we've made in the relationship.
Frankly, it's making my head ache. That must mean I'm on to something.
