Quote: She never called me on it or connected the dots (hell she never CAUGHT me).
For years, I thought my H's LD was mainly due to depression and it was therefore physically non-existent. When I pressed him for reasons, he would frequently blame it on me for being overweight. When I finally discovered he was actually MB to porn quite frequently rather than having sex with me I was finally motivated to take action on the issue. It amazed me that he actually was surprised that I was MB too, after all I was the one who was initiating sex and being turned down.
I consider myself to be a CWW (circling warily wife) now. When I first joined this BB, I was a CAWW (crawling away weeping wife). I actually had to work my way up to WAW status. If my H sticks to his promise of sex twice weekly, I may start taking some baby steps back towards him. This morning I actually started having a couple warm, fuzzy thoughts about him but then I felt like I might start crying because for me in the past loving my H=rejection and pain and so I put my nice protective suit of anger back on and went back to my wary circling mode.
"Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?" - Mary Oliver
