GEL-- I feel I'm the victim here because she is the one walking away. I know it's pathetic. But, I tend to fall into that trap these days. Of course, you bring up the past and I have a V8 moment and think, gee, I wonder if my W felt like a victim during all the years of neglect.
Okay...so I'm going to try to walk over the boundaries we've set. I tried a couple of weeks ago to tell that I was rarin' to go...but she wouldn't have any of it. Just said that I wanted it because I couldn't have it. I hope this works!!
As for the EA stuff, we haven't really gotten to that stage in our C. I posted somewhere (can't remember which forum) about our first C--who was a quack. From the beginning, he was of the mind-set that we were doomed and I should just accept it. Luckily, the W didn't really like him either. We started with a new C (a wonderful woman) about two weeks ago. We've only been to one session together so far. I've been individually a couple of times and she'll do the same this week. Then, we'll meet back again next week. So, there hasn't been time to talk about those things yet. I want to.
Honestly, I do trust my W. I know she loves me. She has gone out of her way to make this as painless as possible. It's taken her over a year and a half to decide to take action. So, now, she's done it and has the momentum, she can't stop or look behind her because she might chicken out again...which would be fine by me.
Okay...going on a tangent...I'm really good at that! Thanks for the advice and encouragement. Maybe I'll get the balls to take action tonight!
