I'm also sorry to hear about your grandmother. My prayers are with you and your family.
Congratulations on the second interview. Your "blah, blah, blah" mode when stressed sure sounds familiar. I've done that as far back as I can remember. My dad used to tell me "don't go borrowing trouble" when I'd start. My poor H usually tries to reassure me before his eyes finally glaze over as I discount his reassurances. Unlike you, though, I never seem to realize I'm doing this until well after the fact. While weaving a cocoon of love for H, don't forget to leave enough room in it for you, too.
Even if you're on the right track, you'll get run over if you just sit there. Will Rogers
To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly be broken. C. S. Lewis
