Looking backward...but only to move forward THREE

[sage]

Hi folks, thanks for the visits! (Andrea -- a special welcome back to you...sounds like a DB shot in the arm is needed? )

I'm glad to hear that the reposts are helpful. I know they are to me.

After an uneventful day at work yesterday I met h for drinks/dinner after his class. He made a lovely toast to moi and we had a relaxing evening. Good food and good drinks.

h is on spring break now and looks like we're going to go away for a mini vacation next week (thurs, fri). Should be nice to get out of town for a bit and go to another locale -- not too far away but just a change of scenery.

Work is blah today. I'm glad it's friday!

One thing I want to journal...towards the tail end of dinner last night (and on the ride home), h talked a bit about "newest" ff. He just mentioned some stories she had told him about her internship...I have to admit it's hard for me to hear him talking about ffs. He knows that too, I think, so I TOTALLY LOVE that he's talking to me about them -- why? Because it's brave and open and honest of him...and I need, need, need to get over this "heart closing up" feeling of fear. He reacts to it so differently now...holds my hand and gives it a squeeze when mentioning some story or other...doesn't close off or back away. The other night at the banquet he introduced me to one of his ffs...some of my jealousy reared its head (inside) but he was so great...leaned over and gave me a squeeze in the middle of the introduction/conversation. I really think he's tuned into the fact that it's hard for me...and he's working to make me feel better.

He's in a bit of an itchy butt mood today. Seemed irked by an errand he had to do (not something for me, however) so I tried not to take the bait.

Sage