Its amazing how reading your posts always helps me! I am having same issues in my M. My neediness sending message to H that he's not good enough and will never be.
H's need for privacy and my need to control, also my fear he will hurt me again.
Just yesterday I precipitated a bad sitch by accusing him of having ow. No proof, in fact I really believe that for first time he is really trying.
But my own fear of being hurt and all the Qs about whether I can ever trust him again keep me afraid, especially when things are going well.
Its almost like I must sabotage. Thanks for the insight.