I talked with an attorney on Fri. My conclusion is that the divorce laws of the Commonwealth of PA have nothing to do with the truth or justice. The idea of "no-fault" is a farce. There is fault here. We could lose our house. Our savings and the college funds could be cut in half, etc... I wish we would have put those funds in the girls' names.
We also talked about the custody sitch. The attorney offered some alternatives to what WAW wants to happen. WAW shot them all down. I was not in a good frame of mind before the meeting b/c the attorney's office gave me incorrect directions to get there. The contents of the meeting just fueled the fire. And so after the meeting when WAW called to talk about the custody sitch I was really in no frame of mind to talk. It was the hardest convo I ever had. WAW accused me of not changing at all from last Oct. The fact that I replied OK to the family court challenge was a HUGE180 for me! I always shied away from the courts and attorneys. WAW wouldn't admit that the optimal sitch for the girls was to have 2 loving parents under the same roof. (before you shout PERSUIT, I also told WAW that I didn't want her back.) I said that the girls need a place to call home. I felt moving back and forth every night was too much disruption. WAW said what was in the best interest of the girls was equal time with both of us.
WAW emailed over the weekend to say that she hates that we can't resolve this. So do I.
WAW called this AM to ask if I have come to a decision yet. I told her no. At one point she started raising her voice and told me that I was thinking like a 13-yr-old. She is so deep in the fog that she sees only what she wants to see. I know that time heals all wounds, but just how much time is needed to heal the sight of an MLC'r? (A rhetorical question).
And so there we have it, I have no clue what the "right" answer is in this sitch. Does "dropping the rope" also mean letting go of my daughters? I plan on a prayer night tonight.
