Last night I had two experiences that let me know just where I stand with my feelings on the sitch.
First, I want to a friend's house to help out with a computer problem. (I'm like a Geek Squad guy, only I don't get paid and that bytes.) I realize that when you help someone out, they are going to be nice to you. It felt good to be appreciated. I thirsted for more and thought that I was ready to "move on".
Second, depending on my mood, I either keep my wedding ring on or put it in my pocket. Last night when I was emptying my pockets, I threw my coins into my "bank". Later I remembered that I didn't have my ring on and looked all over for it. I was feeling kind of panicked for a while. By chance, I saw it in the bank and felt relieved. I guess that I'm not as far a long in letting go as I thought.
Today is my last day at the C. I changed C's b/c I felt that I was not getting anything out of the old C and now I feel like it's not either C, it's me. I'm at a point now where, I'm just saturated w/C'ing, DB'ing, and any other 'ing you can think of. I need a break. I'm going to get a beer, put my feet up and read a sci-fi book. I haven't done that in more than a year.
