Today is/was our 21st anniversary. No, I am not going to say anything to WAW about it.
I had to go away for two days for business. D13 & D15 had a rare mid-week stayover at the apt w/WAW. I got home early last night so that they could come home, but they said they wanted to stay at the apt. Dissapointing, but I didn't let them know. This AM WAW called to say that D13 was sick and not going to school. I called later to see how she was.
WAW is taking steps to remover he name from all bills that come to the house. On one hand I could care less about this. On the other hand, this is just one more step in her relentless march towards the D and it p's me off.
I don't feel like I am getting anything out of my C sessions. I don't feel like I have EVER gotten anything out of them. I've learned the most from reading books (13 of them). At some of my sessions I felt like the C should have been paying ME for the session.
I really feel like I am at a point where I am stuck. WAW will only talk to me about D15 & D13. I've been dark about everything else. I'm trying to "let go" and drop the rope, but even tho' I tell myself that is not the same as giving up, it feels like it.
This is point where if I were reading this post, I would say "You need to step back and talk a look at the sitch. Sure is been 357 days since WAW moved out, but don't focus on that. Sure it feels like you've made no progress in your R, but look at all you've accomplished with yourself. Your playing the piano a little, you did the comedy workshop and your R w/D15 & D13 is better than it ever was and your R w/God has matured. And thru out all of this you've stuck to your game plan of not turning this into the War of the Roses".
To quote a famous DB'er, "It's been a year" and quite a year it's been. I'm ready for the Merry-Go-Round, I want to get off the rollercoaster.
