Jabez- Your personality is strong, you know what you think is right and wrong. That trait is one of the things that attracted me to my H. But it is that same trait that is making it very difficult for us to reconcile. I haven't read every word of every one of your posts, but I can hear the conviction in your voice when you write. If I could suggest anything to help your situation, it would be to soften up a little. People make mistakes Jabez. I'm my own proof. But that doesn't automatically mean they have no integrity. Life keeps rolling, even when you do something so stupid you would give anything to go back in time. Sometimes good things can come out of something bad. I've often thought about my own situation, and if I could go back in time, would I change what I did? I can honestly tell you I don't know....that doesn't mean I'm not incredibly sorry for not having whatever it takes to come to be the person I am today WITHOUT causing my H and so many others such pain. But it wasn't until my A that I woke up and saw the light. So, something good came of something bad. All I'm saying is, just try to soften your perspective. You say we all have our warts, but I'm feeling like the only wart you're focusing on is the your W and OM. Hang in there. Conviction can be a good thing at times. But so can a soft and forgiving heart.
"Happiness is a butterfly, which, when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
