NYS: I asked WAW to do me a favor and help me with some insight into myself as to what made her lose interest or drove her away. Ths answer came back as apathy or at least what she interpreted as apathy. There was also some push back that I interpreted as either 1) don't bother changing for me because I'm gone OR 2) I'm not changing for you because I'm so happy now.
I replied and thanked her for her input and said that I would be seeking input from others so that I could get a well-rounded view of how others see me.
Funny thing, the day I sent the email, she replied and then came over to help D13 study. She was there during the dinner hour, but I didn't offer dinner. Is there a corrolation?
I've been analyzing her reply. I didn't think that I was apathetic, I thought that she was, but that doesn't matter, what matters is her perception. So what is it that made me seem apathetic? Going to night school? Working 60hr weeks? Both of those are over done with. I never went out w/the guys. She has said that I am a loving father, and she has left the D's w/me so I'm guessing that I'm not an apathetic father.
So my question is where can I go from here. It seems hard to be interested in WAW w/o her feeling like I'm pursuing. I was hartened that she replied and that she indentified something. I'm putting this in my solution journal so that I can continue to chew on this. Any input would be appreciated.
