I just got back from a meeting with OM’s mother. She is a sweet, gentle older lady who is thoroughly crushed by what is going on. My W is addicted to the OM. The OM’s mom said that W is obsessed with him. I believe that the OM’s mom hates my W, but out of respect for me she did not say that. I came away from the meeting crushed. I feel like I had to go to the doctor to know what was causing the pain, but now that I know it is cancer, I hurt in more ways than before.
The OM’s mom said that W calls OM all the time and that the notes W writes are like a preteen’s. During my phone session w/Vernetta she theorized that MLC minds think like teen minds and process information with emotion in the amygdala as apposed to adult minds which process information with the frontal cortex by reasoning.
Since I have the D papers, how do I continue w/LRT and deal with this addiction? I am feeling hopeless right now. I feel betrayed. I know that I am supposed to be focused on myself, but tonight it is taking all my energy not to backslide and call W and blast away. I thank God that I have my 2D’s to love.
Looking for something to pull me up out of this funk.
