My urge is fueled by either not enough progress or not the kind of progess I wanted.
These things take time and go on their own time schedule, not ours. But you are seeing progress, and that's the key. "not enough" or "not the kind I wanted" are quantitative and qualitative statements that have more to do with your desires and expectations than what real life is providing you with. So, perhaps, you need to quiet your urges somewhat. Or, take a step back and judge from the results you are getting as to what would be needed to encourage more of those results.
There was a streak of 3 weeks where I received unsolicited email about the kids each day, and some were light hearted, but never anything about her/me/us. There was was even a spoken apology for snapping at me.
Well, things fluctuate and right now may just be a lull. See what happens.
