Hi every one. I wrote XW a letter today and I wanted to share it with the board and hopefully get some feed back on it before I give it to her. Please read it and give me any advice that you can offer.
Hi Jenni, Here we are again. Who would have thought that we would be in this sitch. You made a comment last night about the what if’s. Well, I have given it a lot of thought and I even went down by the lake this morning and spent about half an hour looking over the water and talking to God. I hope that you don’t mind getting this, but it feels right so I have to write it. We all have to make decisions in life. The decisions that we make and the chances that we take will follow us for the rest of our lives. A lot of the decisions we make are great, but unfortunately some of them turn into mistakes. Mistakes are what we learn from. Making a mistake is all too often part of live. There is nothing that we can do to change what we have done because it is already in the past. The secret here is to learn from those mistakes. They can be a great tool that we can use to plan what our future decisions will be. I made a lot of mistakes. The good thing is that I can admit that some of my decisions were mistakes, and in turn, I can learn from them. I too have though about all the what if’s. Let’s take a few moments to reflect on a lot of what if’s. What if Chris Columbus listened to everyone telling him that he was nuts. What if he hadn’t set sail on day in search of a shorter way to reach India. What if Ben Franklin hadn’t been drunk one day and decided to fly a kite in a thunder storm. (Quick history lesson here. Did you know that Ben Franklin actually started the first Fire Department in the U.S.) O.K. back to business here. What if Abe Lincoln hadn’t wanted to free the slaves. What if Jesus hadn’t been willing to die for our sins. I think you probably get the point that I am trying to make. One more. What if you hadn’t taken the chance and given me that kiss twelve years ago in Jim’s kitchen. The world is full of what if’s. I know all about all the what if’s that YOU have been thinking about. I have thought about them too. What if she comes back and I can’t keep her happy. What if she comes back and I go back to my old ways. Believe me Jenni, I have thought about them too. Well, what if you do come back. It won’t always be easy. I can promise you that. The secret is that when two people are deeply in love with one another, they work through the hard times and they enjoy the good times. What if I hadn’t called you three weeks ago and asked you out for a drink. The world is full of what if’s. What if you go your way and I go mine. Five years from know we might look back and say wow, what if. Life is full of those decisions and chances. If we don’t take chances, we will never know what might have been. I am a very strong believer, as you know, that absolutely everything happens for a reason. We may never know what those reasons are, but it is not for us to decide. God wanted this to happen to us. Our divorce was planned way before you and I were ever even born. He has a master plan for all of us. Who knows, maybe we weren’t meant to be together. But, maybe we were and this divorce was meant to draw us closer together by working through the hard times. All I know is how I feel in my heart and in my gut. I have to listen to my heart and do what my gut tells me to do. I think that it’s Gods way of telling me what he wants. I have asked God to take this in his hands and handle it for me. I really think that he is telling me what he wants. I want you to know that I am not writing this to try to help you make your decisions. You have to do it on your own with Gods help. I am writing this to tell you how I have been making my decisions. Writing this was a decision that I have made. It might turn into a mistake, but it’s a chance that I feel that I have to take. I want you to know that I am worried about you. I know what you are going through, and Im praying for you. I will always have a clean shoulder for you to cry on. Good luck and God bless you,
