Well, I saw XW tonight. We had a great time again. Her and a friend came out. We spent about 4 hours together. Had a great time, played darts all night. There were several times that we had contact. Several kisses, she touched me in places that really surprised me. Then at about 2:30, she got the call from her b/f. I only heard half the conversation, but I got the impression that she was going to see him after she left me. I got pretty pissed off and left. She called me about 5 mins later on my cell. I was pretty upset, I was very emotional. I told her that I was not about to play games. As I was sitting in my driveway talking to her, she pulled in my drive. We talked for about half an hour. She told me that she really didn't know what to do. She said that she was still very much in love with me, but she is worried about all the what if's. I told her that she had to listen to what her heart told her. She told me that she didn't know what that was at this point. She said that her b/f keeps telling her that he needed his space, then he calls her and tells her that he misses her. She says that she feels that he is putting her on the back burner. I told her that he must be a fool for telling her these things. I told her again how I felt and that any body that couldn't see how special she was didn't deserve her. We held each other for quite some time and cried together again. I told her that she had two choices. She could go home and be alone, or she could stay and spend the night in my arms. She said that she needed to be alone. I think that her b/f will be waiting for her when she gets home. I don't know for sure. She just called me to let me know that she made it home alright. I could tell that she was still upset by the sound of her voice. I told her that I wasn't going to call her because I didn't want her to feel pressured. She told me that her cell was always on and I could call anytime. I guess that it's time to ask God to handle this. I told her that she had to make the choice herself. I can't help her. God, all I want is for her to be happy. Please take her in your arms and lead her to that happyness. In Jesus name, Amen
