Had another meeting with H today, it was positive but I'm unsure how I feel. I think I wanted more time, really, but maybe I'm ungrateful.
He sent me a text message asking to come over at 8.30pm. I said yes (it's snowing here today and so I am hemmed in, all my plans were cancelled and I wanted company but I just text 'ok' and nothing else so he wouldn't know that). He turned up on time and asked me how I am. I told him some of the stuff I've been doing the last couple of days, I told him what our dd got up to. We talked about dd1's reading and how she's doing really well with it.
I made coffees. He asked me if I knew a way of renting DVD's for free. I told him about this �10 a month thing I'd heard of so he said he'd look into it. I asked him what he was upto and he told me. We hugged, he kissed me, said thanks for the coffee and then went home, saying 'See you Saturday' on his way out.
He stayed about an hour and a half. Next time he visits he said he'd fix my computer. I now have his name on the login thing and he has started keeping files here. He liked it and said thank you.
I remembered what 'inmyplace' said about asking him out on a date so I did. Scared the life out of me and I thought I was being too forward but he said yes. He also said I could have dd1 for her birthday on 17th March (on our own) which is great, first year in 3 that he has let me have her. He said we could all go out to dinner on Easter Sunday as well.
The only thing I'm having trouble with is it is still a secret that we are seeing each other. Two of my friends know, but not even the kids know. I've been seeing him nearly 3 months now and wonder how long I'll have to keep it a secret.
I thought of maybe asking if we could tell people by 30 April (my birthday) - what do you reckon? That gives him another couple of months but doesn't drag it on for too long.
Or maybe that's too soon? I don't know. I don't want to pressurize him, which is against DB'ing rules but by then we will have been seeing each other nearly 5 months so I would want people to know. It stresses me not being open about it.
