Well, I have my PMA. My asst pastor want me to go into Sports Ministry and I want to go to law school. That seed has been planted.
I am a alcoholic - ouch!!!
I don't need it to survive, I can go weeks without drinking. When I do drink, I get drunk. This has affected my M to my W. I can drink around other people with no problem, but around my W the resentment just comes out. So it has affected my M it must be a problem. I am moving forward, working on never drinking again.
Haven't talked to W in 2 weeks today, this is the longest since we met. I hear from MIL she is very depressed. No crap - She was depressed when we were not together and she is depressed when we are together. Happiness is truely a do-it-yourself job.
Back to hanging out with my FF. She told me that W is crazy for leaving me. Ego stroke. I am commited to my W as long as we are married, but I don't think it will be that much longer. I'm done, she's done. Time to let go and let God.
God is always working - when your focus is on him you are always changing for the better. I have alot of faith that it will not take long for God to interven. Alot of seeds have be planted in her from the Holy Spirit. So now I just sit back and watch the Holy Spirit work in her life and in my life.
I'm not on a roller coaster - I'm just working on me, she is out of my control.
