UPDATE
Well H and I just got back from a trip to Las vegas, NV. We
did not renew our vows there. This was a mutual decision timing was not right.

Over all our trip went well we drove the rental car. I had to give it back today my car was a total loss. Bought a new car today it's an '88 cadillac deville w/ only 62800 miles so I thought that was quite good. Very nice interior a little minor body work needed in front but other then that very nice car.

H helped me pick it out. h went 3 days w/o calling OW. since we have been back they have spoken and seen each
other.
I kind of confronted him on our trip and we had it out
because he would not talk about it. I guess i will have to
wait for him to open up on his own time. He has about a few
things I just need to remember to be patient.

I need to get back to GAL. Now that I have a car I can do
this. I also can now go look for a job.

I have noticed when I act calmly he acts better and is more receptive towards me. He openly tells me he loves me. He seems to be trying to assure me everything is going to be
fine. On the trip he said "I love you, I know I need to end
things w/ her, and I just need you to be here for me." He also said that he wants our marriage to work out. He feels
that when I question him it would sometimes be easier to
be seperated. He hasnt' come to terms w/ the fact that I
may sometimes need to question him. He also stated that he
almost feels like he's the boyfriend that he shouldn't be
telling the kids what to do. i told him well you wouldn't
feel that way if you didn't take off all the time and come
and go as you please.

he still has a lot of things he needs to work through. Hopefully i can hang in there.

We have also been ML everyday if not several times a day. I
have bought several sexy outfits. And some sexy hooker shoes that he requested. i figure if I keep the ML in there
everything will eventually fall into place. While we were seperated he barely wanted to touch me. He said he always
wanted to come back since the day he left. I asked well why'd you stay gone so long. But he didn't answer.

He has been home about a month and a half now!!!

Well i think that's all for now. I will update again soon.
~inawe~