Boy do I sound whiney after rereading my post. That's OK though. I needed to vent and feel a lot better now. I realize that I have a lot blessings in my life and am much better off than I was two years ago. I guesss sometimes I get upset that I let my life get so out of control before I would wake up. Things could be a lot worse. I realize that.
I made a big mistake by reading the emails H had sent to that women almost two years ago. No good could come out of that. It does remind me how out of control he had become. Boy was he pathetic. I guess he has a lot of guilt and embarrassment to deal with. I sometimes get off track and imagine his life is so much better than mine when in reality it is a million times worse. I pity him more than anything. He has made a mess of his life. That is for sure.
