And the worst part is that there is nothing I can do to make me happy. Happiness is having a lover and I don't have one.
As someone in a very similar sit I disagree. Your happiness if controlled by anyone or anything else will fail. Happiness is up to you. I always use this to keep me on "track" E+R=O Event + Response = Outcome. Your level of "being happy" (Outcome) is as much dependant on your Response as the Event (sexlessness)
No one can make you happy, nor can they make you not happy. What I think your fighting/struggling with is the Response part of the equation.
